Life After Religious Deconversion

When I went through my deconversion from Christianity, I didn’t know what to expect on the other side. I wasn’t sure if life after religious deconversion was going to be better or worse, but all I knew was that I wanted my life to be based on truth from that moment onward. In the eleven years since my deconversion, I’ve found that life has been so much better for me ever since and I suspect it will be for you too if you’re going through a deconversion as well. 

While some things that were once precious will be lost to you, I would argue that those things were never good for you anyway. Furthermore, what you gain is far superior to the experience you could ever have while being repressed under religious thought and control. Therefore, today I’m going to present to you five things a person loses and five things a person gains in their life after religious deconversion.

The Things You Lose After Religious Deconversion

#1 You Lose the Obligation to Attend Church and Other Religious Activities

The most immediate and noticeable change when you deconvert is that you no longer feel obligated to attend religious services or activities. While some of these activities were enjoyable, there was always a pressure to be there, wasn’t there? If you had a tough week and needed more rest on the weekend, that was too bad because you were judged by others and by yourself for your church attendance. God forbid (literally) that you take some time for yourself on the weekends to recover and spend time with your family. And let’s be real, did any of us really need to hear those sermons every week when we actually needed rest and connection with the people we loved far more? Once you no longer feel guilted into the obligation of consistent church attendance, it’s amazing how much more enjoyable and relaxing your weekends (and maybe even weeknights) become. We as humans already have enough to do with our work, school, and daily lives. The last thing we need is another obligation to consume the last bits of energy we possess, especially when we wake up and realize that our religious obligation was actually a waste of time and based not on truth, but instead on assumptions and fear.

#2 You Lose the Obsession with Moral Perfectionism and Repentance

You know, it really sucked being obsessed with my behavior all the time as a Christian. I felt like I could never do anything right. It was like I was being monitored by God continuously as he nitpicked my behavior. After all, just ONE minor, insignificant mistake or moral fault could send me to a LIFETIME in hell. Yeah, like that ever made any sense. This caused me to constantly obsess over obtaining and maintaining moral perfection, as is the case for most of the Christians I’ve ever known. Instead of focusing on living a moral life and accepting my mistakes when they happened, I instead was encouraged by my religion to obsess over these mistakes, feel excessive shame and remorse for them, and repent for these “sins” afterward. However, when I left religion and became an atheist, I finally developed a proper understanding of moral reasoning and moved on with my life. I no longer obsess over my imperfections. I no longer need to repent to a god that might not even exist. And finally, I’m focused on being good instead of beating myself up for all the times when I’m bad. Honestly, being religious created an unhealthy psychological state for me, one which finally healed once I deconverted.

#3 You Lose the Fear of Judgment in the Afterlife

While going through a deconversion, one of the hardest things for some people to shake is their belief in hell or some type of judgement in the afterlife. It’s honestly sad how religious people are motivated by fear of judgment to stay in line. Instead of being motivated only by love and moral reasoning to be good, so many religions and their holy books have preferred fear and cruelty to keep people in their control. So basically, instead of tapping into people’s best instincts for social harmony, someone thought it necessary to scare the shit out of people to keep them in line. During my deconversion, I like many others, initially had some fear of hell. I occasionally thought, “What if I’m wrong? What if I’m going to go to hell or be judged harshly by a god when I die for becoming an atheist?” However, as time passed, I realized that most religions had their own unique afterlife fabrications and that because they were all different, they couldn’t all be true at the same time. I also strongly suspected that all of them were false. As a result, my feelings eventually shifted and I realized that for hell to be an actual threat, it had to actually exist. And for me to believe that it existed, there needed to be evidence of the afterlife. Because I soon realized in my research that there was absolutely ZERO credible evidence for the afterlife, my belief in hell faded and I realized that there was nothing to fear. It was all just superstition and deserved no further serious consideration. If you still have a fear of hell, just realize that it’s not based in reality or reliable evidence, but instead in indoctrination. It’s just a feeling, a feeling that will go away with time as your belief in hell goes away.

#4 You Lose the Shame for Prioritizing Yourself

While I can’t speak for all religions, the version of Christianity I grew up with turned me into a self-depriving people pleaser. I was expected to serve others and always put their needs above my own. Sacrifice as a concept was adored within my religious community, treated like an ideal to be sought. As Christians, we based our worth as individuals on how much value we provided to other people, instead of basing our worth on who we were. There was no emphasis on self-worth, self-love, or self-care; it was all about what you could do for others. I often heard the phrase “God first, others second, you last” from the people around me. What an awful piece of advice and a terrible way to live! This concept is completely contrary to everything we know from modern psychology about achieving the wellbeing of both the individual and society as a whole. Instead of prioritizing the wellness of the individual, religion actually prioritizes the wellness of itself! It was never about helping people achieve wellness; it was always about profiting and upscaling the religion. In the same way that greedy companies mistreat their employees to maximize their financial gains, religion also encourages self-deprivation, self-neglect, and self-sacrifice to maximize its reach. However, once you leave religion behind, you can finally drop that insufferable shame for honoring your needs and start prioritizing yourself the way you’ve always deserved. You start to realize that YOU come first and that you’re no good to anyone if you aren’t taking proper care of yourself. 

#5 You Lose the Company of Close-Minded People

And finally, the last thing you lose when you deconvert from religion is the company of close-minded people. At this intersection between your past religious life and your new secular life, you discover very quickly who truly loves and respects you. In my experience, some of your religious friends, the open-minded ones, will continue being friends with you and agree to disagree with you when necessary. Some of them may also choose to disrespect you by refusing to even acknowledge your shift, continuing to treat you like you’re still religious. And lastly, some of them will show you just how close-minded, prejudiced, and insecure they really are, leaving your friendship or criticizing you for your new position. The reality is that while you will lose people, either completely or partially, the ones that you lose were probably never that good for you anyway. However, the people that stay in your life and treat you and your new position with respect–you don’t lose these people. You only lose the ones that are worth losing.

The Things You Gain After Religious Deconversion

#1 You Gain the Company of Open-Minded People

In your life after deconversion, you not only gain new people who respect you and your new position, but as alluded to earlier, you also gain appreciation for the open-minded people who still remain in your life after your deconversion. Because religion thrives on being close-minded to the world of possibilities, when you leave religion, you finally gain access to people who are much more open-minded. These people will not only be much more likely to be interested in discovering and valuing you for who you really are, but they will also be much less prone to being condescending toward the way you think and feel. I would argue that open-minded people are healthier to associate with and will bring much more love and acceptance into your life than any close-minded people ever could. While I do value challenging my beliefs occasionally because I value truth, the last thing anyone needs is a close-minded person who doesn’t care to understand or respect another human being for who they are or how they think.

#2 You Gain the Ability to Ground Your Beliefs in Evidence

This one is a big one. Instead of constantly trying to convince yourself that something is true on the basis of faith or religious dogma, you can begin rebuilding your beliefs on the basis of evidence. You won’t realize how insecure you felt about your previous beliefs until you develop new ones based on evidence, observation, science, moral reasoning, and psychology. The confidence you gain in what you know to be true is vastly superior to the feeble confidence you understandably had in faith, religious authoritarianism, or superstitious texts. No longer are you trying to force confidence and conviction because they come naturally since you actually have evidence this time! Also, the days of having to have an answer for everything are over. I remember when I was a Christian that I was expected to be ready to “defend the faith” at all times. I often felt like if I didn’t have an answer for something, I had to pretend like I knew the answer or defer to the “God knows the answer” excuse. Now, as an atheist, I admit what I don’t know when the evidence is insufficient, but boy oh boy, when I do know something, I KNOW it and can prove it. Being able to be honest with myself about what I do and don’t know is such a relief. Being grounded in evidence instead of trying to determine what is true based upon shifting feelings (i.e. faith) has resulted in clarity instead of the frustration I previously lived with in my religious past. Now I know what I know and have the honesty and humility with myself and others to admit what I don’t know. It’s so freeing!

#3 You Gain the Motivation to Live YOUR Best Life

Once you leave religion and realize that the concept of an afterlife is probably just another man-made pipedream, you gain an urgency to start taking your life more seriously. Instead of deferring your hope and happiness to an afterlife that may never happen, you understand that this life is probably the only one you’ll ever get and that you need to live it YOUR way. Gone are the days of living your life in subjugation to an authority that might not even exist and sacrificing yourself for the benefit of your “non-profit” religions and churches. Instead, you begin to question what really matters to YOU and who you really are, beginning the process of self-discovery and aligning with your true self. Doing what matters to you becomes of primary importance because you realize how much time you’ve wasted serving goals and values that were never really yours. The truth is that you actually begin living YOUR life for the first time. No longer are you living by someone else's arbitrary rules or values, but instead by those of your own. You begin to realize that what you need, want, think, and feel actually matters and that religious servitude has only been stealing those things from you your entire life. Because of your deconversion, you now OWN your life and can begin to live your best life as a result.

#4 You Gain the Freedom to Think for Yourself

In addition to the open-minded people you will attract, the confidence in your convictions, and the motivation to live a life in alignment with your values, you also gain the freedom to think for yourself. Instead of doubting your inner wisdom and deferring your mind to the religious authorities or holy books held over you, you begin to trust yourself and realize that you’re capable of thinking for yourself! Because thinking skeptically and freely is no longer the “sin of doubt” or some other type of sacrilegious grievance, you gain the ability to discern what is right, what is wrong, what is true, and what is false. Trading blind trust in authority for trust in yourself, you gain self-respect and finally honor your ability to think. You begin to realize that it is your responsibility to develop the critical thinking skills religion never taught you and that you are ultimately responsible for what you think and do. You also look back into your religious past and realize that you’ve always had this responsibility, but failed to acknowledge it because you gave away your ability to think to appease a religion that doesn’t want you to think. Now though, there is no institution trying to shut down your logical faculties, but instead only yourself, seeking truth and understanding in a world that far too often fears and avoids it. 

#5 You Gain the Freedom to Be Yourself

Most importantly, in your life after religion, you leave behind all of the acting, pretending, and hiding you did to alter and stuff yourself into the tiny hole religion created for you. You gain the ability to expand into your true self and be who you’ve always been on the inside. Because you think for yourself and are no longer diminishing yourself under the authority of religion, you finally gain the freedom to be yourself. So many religious people spend their whole lives never living in alignment with their true values or expressing their authentic selves. But you, because you’ve left all of this self-repressing dogma behind, are about to bloom into something beautiful. Some people might tell you that you have “changed”; however, you and I both know this isn’t the case. You’re just being the person you’ve always been, free of the false self religion continually expected of you. And what the world needs is more people like you, not the mindless drones that religion keeps trying to manufacture, but instead REAL, authentic, independent-thinking individuals. The world never grows or changes in a healthy way when people are forced into self-abandonment and compliance through propaganda, indoctrination, or brainwashing. Instead, the world becomes a better place when every individual owns their own mind and contributes their unique perspective into the world’s consensus. Therefore, the freedom that you gain to be yourself when you leave religion is not only a gift to yourself, but also to the world. Individuation and collaboration make the world a better place, not compliance and dissolution of the self.

Final Thoughts

If you’re currently going through a deconversion, just know that after a while, all of the stress and uncertainty you’re experiencing will eventually get replaced with confidence and a much better life. While you may lose some people, you'll also lose the shame, guilt, fear, obligation, and self-depreciation that religion has been giving you too. And what’s left after that? The opportunity to gain healthier friends, ground your life in evidence instead of faith, live YOUR life for the first time, think for yourself, and most importantly, be yourself. All of these things are priceless! If only more people could go through this process to experience a better and healthier life, the world would become a better place.

You’re not crazy, you’re not weird, you’re not weak in faith–you’re just awakening to the reality that has always been in front of you and inside of you that others deny. Most people don’t get this far, either because they’ve never had something happen in their life to stir their awakening OR because they’ve lacked the courage to discover the truth when they do. But YOU…you’re not them, and you’re going to get through this.

While it may be difficult right now, you’ll eventually come out the other side and you’ll be FREE!

Why Skepticism is Superior to Faith

Being raised in a very religious part of the United States of America, I was indoctrinated to believe that faith was important, could be trusted, and actually meant something. This all made sense to me until my deconversion from Christianity in 2015 and my subsequent intellectual awakening. 

Religion Taught Me to Suppress My Doubts and My Intellect

My parents taught me to suppress my intellect growing up, only encouraging me to use it to confirm the beliefs they gave me to absorb instead of using it to seek truth. Also, doubt was discouraged (even though I now know how important it is for ridding oneself of untrue beliefs) and blind faith in God and the Bible was honored with respect that it doesn’t deserve.

Skepticism Versus Faith and Cynicism

For the purpose of this article, I’m going to define skepticism as withholding belief when encountering new ideas unless sufficient evidence has been acquired to justify belief. Also, skepticism is not cynicism like many people seem to think. Instead, skepticism involves being open-minded to new ideas while also exercising self-restraint and personal judgement to prevent acquiring a false belief whereas cynicism tends to be the complete opposite, assuming that everything is false without giving any open-minded consideration. Therefore, true skepticism is open-minded and unassuming, which is completely different from the assumptions and close-mindedness of cynicism.

Faith on the other hand is more proximate to cynicism. It is both assuming of propositions unverified by reputable evidence as well as close-minded to any other potential truths. When one has faith, they have chosen to dismiss any evidence (or lack thereof) to the contrary while also accepting only evidence that confirms their position. Therefore, faith, by definition, is a dysfunctional cognitive bias whereas skepticism is a much more useful tool for retaining objectivity and actually discovering truth. Honestly, the faith that I had when I was a Christian was nothing more than an assumption drilled into me during my childhood, as is the case with most proponents of faith. The reality is that very few people value faith in modern society unless it was idolized in their childhood. This explains why most fans of faith have either believed in the concept since their childhood or are returning to their childhood indoctrination later in life as an adult. However, someone raised only with objective critical thinking skills and an evidence-based epistemology would likely find faith a troubling concept for sure and have no reason to invest in such an unreliable way of determining truth and reality.

The Brutal Realities of Faith

Let’s get to the real elephant in the room. People of faith like to believe that faith is an admirable value, something possessed by great people, and that somehow it far surpasses reason and evidence-based frameworks. However, the truth is that faith is nothing more than a feeling without any evidence to support it. That’s why the majority of religions value faith because it can be used to justify belief in anything with no proper grounding in reality. That’s the problem I have with faith. All of these religions are claiming that their beliefs are true on the basis of faith, even though they regularly disagree with each other on the nature of reality. Without any rule or measure by which to judge and discern reality, anything goes, including ideas that are mutually incompatible. If one religion says that there are multiple gods on the basis of their faith while another says there is only one god on the basis of faith, then what’s the truth? Either one of them is wrong, or both are wrong. It is just not possible for two conflicting ideas to be true at the same time, unless of course you use faith for determining truth and reality.

Therefore, faith is nothing more than an assumption lacking evidence to establish it in reality whereas skepticism is a system by which facts are observed and belief is withheld unless sufficient evidence is present to justify belief or conclusions. And even when a skeptic determines that belief is warranted, he practices caution by assigning degrees of certainty to his conclusions because he knows that while truth exists, it is difficult to capture confidently. This is completely contrary to the absolute arrogance of those who possess faith, who assume that they have THE truth and that everyone else is wrong even though they can’t even provide the slightest adequate evidence for their emotional convictions. The irony is that I was taught growing up to believe that skeptics were the arrogant ones while us Christians were the humble ones, bowing down at the feet of Jesus. The truth, however, is far different: It is actually the skeptics who are the humble ones, choosing to admit what they don’t know on the basis of inadequate evidence. The bearers of faith are actually often the arrogant ones, especially the evangelicals, who think that it’s somehow acceptable to push their unverified beliefs upon someone else.

Don’t Expect the Religious to Support Your Abandonment of Faith

If you were raised to respect faith and are starting to see its flaws, know that you are not alone. There are plenty of people who’ve been down this road before (me being one of them) who have discovered that faith is all bark and no bite. You may be realizing for the first time that faith is nothing more than a concept rooted in superstition, indoctrination, and group conformity instead of reality and evidence. Just be aware that most of the religious people you’ve been surrounded by your whole life will not respect your new position and will try to convince you that your thinking is flawed or sacrilegious. If you want to debate with them, go ahead. However, if you’re looking for support, you’re going to have to find it elsewhere in both new people and yourself.

The Doubting Shadow Personality of the Religious

Most people possess at least some ability to reason objectively if they choose to use it. However, people of faith often reject this aspect of themselves because it eventually raises reasonable doubts about their religion. Instead of valuing truth by openly considering these doubts, most of them give into their fear and try to suppress their rational self in favor of blind faith. As a result, most religious people possess a subconscious doubting side that has long been repressed in their shadow personality for years. Therefore, your dissent and doubt will likely make them feel uncomfortable because it will be raising this aspect of their doubt into their awareness that they’ve been avoiding for a long time. Even your withdrawal from their religion alone will be enough to trigger intense feelings of uncertainty in them–and boy do they hate uncertainty!

The Truth About the Practice of Religion

One thing you will learn quickly as a truth seeker is that most people–but especially the religious–are driven by comfort and security. When they perceive you as the cause of their discomfort, even though you’re only triggering an internal confrontation within them with their own repressed doubt, they’re probably not going to like your new position very much. Many of them will want nothing to do with your new ideas and others will even refuse to acknowledge your shift, treating you like you’re still a person of faith like them. Furthermore, some will try to argue against your ideas and others will even try to shame or discredit you to avoid facing their fears. It isn’t your fault that they’re feeling this way, but most of them will do whatever they have to do to push their doubts back into repression. That’s what the practice of religion actually is: Struggling to maintain unverified beliefs in an effort to minimize fear and maximize comfort. YOU may have chosen to leave this practice of fear and comfort behind, however, they haven’t and they are not going to understand or respect your departure from it.

Protect and Respect Yourself

Don’t let anyone tell you what you “should” think, feel, or believe. That is your right and your responsibility, not anyone else’s. Even if you feel unsure of your new ideas right now, which is completely normal, know that you are fully capable of developing critical thinking skills quickly if you haven’t already. 

Conclusion

As far as we know, humans are the only conscious beings on this planet capable of critical thinking, so let’s not waste this capacity by choosing to ignore our doubts out of fear that we might make mistakes. While we all regularly make mistakes, I would argue that faith maximizes the likelihood of possessing false convictions whereas skepticism minimizes this risk and increases the likelihood of actually securing some truth for yourself. 

The religious might not respect your new position, but those of us in the skepticism community do. Keep questioning. Keep doubting. Keep separating truth from fiction and don’t believe in anything unless you can prove it. Afterall,

The discovery of truth begins not with faith, but with doubt.