An Atheist’s Guide to Achieving Lasting Transformation
Growing up in a conservative Christian home, I noticed that lasting transformation rarely happened despite constantly being discussed. I observed how the same people had the same problems, years and even decades later, myself included. As I grew into my early twenties and my problems with emotional regulation and mental illness worsened, I developed a personal interest in psychology as I tried to heal myself. From then until now, I’ve noticed that most people who achieve any real, lasting change do so through the principles of modern psychology, not religion. While religion usually encourages people to transform through prayer and surrender to a higher power, those who actually change do so through personal, internal transformation. Even among the religious people I’ve personally known, the ones who have achieved significant growth and lasting change have almost always had a hybrid life philosophy, combining their religious ideals with an understanding of modern psychology. I’ve noticed that those who rely upon religion alone often stay stuck in their problems, especially those with mental and emotional problems. They often mistake their intention to change for being actual change. Therefore, real, lasting transformation comes not through religious practice as some would think, but instead through an intentional, honest encounter with oneself. Also, anyone can do it, regardless of religious preference or life philosophy. That being said, I’m now going to share with you how to achieve real transformation from the perspective of an atheist, starting with the two pathways to change.
The Two Pathways to Change
The Path of External Discipline – Forcing Change
There are two pathways to change: The most common and ineffective path is through external discipline and the less common and more permanent path is through internal transformation. Most people choose the first, often not realizing that the second option is even available. Modern society teaches people that the key to change or growth is to just try harder, to force yourself to be who you want to be or to do what you want to do. This path of trying to force behavioral change is also the one that religion often tries to use. Religious people pray to their gods to help them change and when their prayers inevitably never get answered, they then try to force themselves to change to convince themselves that their prayers were answered. Instead of achieving real transformation, they’ve only forced a temporary change. In the same way, non-religious people also do this same thing, assuming that the only path to change is to fight to be different. As a result, they regularly wonder as well why they can never maintain the change they’ve worked so hard to achieve through discipline. Therefore, everyone on this path either ends up abandoning their goals for transformation OR deluding themselves into believing they’ve achieved real change when they actually haven’t. So what’s the alternative to never getting anywhere with external discipline? The answer is internal transformation.
The Path of Internal Transformation – Being Change
One can only achieve lasting change through internal transformation. When someone tries to force change on the outside without transforming on the inside, they end up constantly fighting against who they are on the inside. That’s why external discipline never lasts–it has no sustainable source on the inside! What you’re really doing is attempting to constantly override your internal self over and over until you exhaust yourself and collapse into being who you really are on the inside right now. Because of this, the inside always eventually shows on the outside. You might be able to act differently than how you really feel internally for a while, but eventually, your inside world will become your outside world again. However, if you recognize this pattern of constantly fighting yourself and burning out, you can change the game in your favor. By identifying the internal source of your behavior and using this knowledge to transform your inner self, your outward self will automatically align! You will no longer have to constantly fight against your inner self to achieve the outer self you want because your inner self and your outward goals will be the same! Therefore, the key to achieving real transformation is to change who you are on the inside so that you can naturally and permanently express your new self on the outside. The reality is that the results you’ve been getting have always been a reflection of who you are on the inside. You may be able to temporarily fake change on the outside, but you will always eventually return to living in alignment with who you are on the inside. Therefore, the only path to sustainable outward transformation is living in alignment with a transformed inner self.
The Three Steps to Achieving Internal Transformation
Step 1 – Acknowledge the Problem and Take Responsibility for It
So the question is, “How do I achieve internal transformation so that the external change flows automatically?” I’m glad you asked, because this is where the real work of transformation begins. Instead of trying to force yourself to change on the outside, you’re going to take a deeper, honest look at yourself on the inside. Begin by acknowledging the problem you have and taking responsibility for it. Maybe you have a problem with a relationship, your work, or your health. Maybe you’re not happy with who you are or you keep falling into the same behavioral patterns over and over again. Whatever it is, just acknowledge the problem and accept that it is your responsibility to resolve it. If you get this far, you’ve already made it further than most people because it’s uncomfortable to admit that YOU are at least part of the problem. Without being willing to acknowledge your responsibility in creating this problem in your life, you will get nowhere. Therefore, you must accept that you need to change to solve your problem. Don’t worry about what others in your life are doing because you aren’t responsible for their actions, nor can you control what they do anyway. You are only responsible for yourself and can only control what you do.
Step 2 – Be Honest with Yourself about the Problem’s Origin
Secondly, you need to ask yourself why you keep having this problem: Why do I keep doing this? Why am I acting this way? What is motivating me to continue in this pattern? These questions will help you determine the internal source of your problem. Don’t let excuses or blaming other people get in the way of digging deeper into yourself. Instead, you must be honest with yourself and ask yourself, “What is wrong with ME that is making these issues continually surface in my life?” Without the humility to admit that you’re at least part of the problem, you will get stuck here and be unable to find the root cause of your issue. However, if you choose humility and are willing to receive constructive criticism from yourself, you will eventually get an uncomfortable, but powerful answer to your question. This answer is going to tell you something about yourself that you’ve probably been trying to bury, repress, or deny for a long time because you haven’t wanted to face it until now. However, you’ve known this truth deep down for a long time, haven’t you? So the next question to ask is, “Do I actually want to take responsibility for this issue and work to change it, or do I want to take the easy route and stay the same?” Be honest with yourself, because if you don’t really want to change, it’s better to accept the results you’ve always gotten because nothing is going to change. However, if you do want to change, it’s time for you to start intentionally creating an internal shift that will transform your life forever.
Step 3 – Replace the Problem’s Origin with Healthier Alternatives
The third and final step to achieving internal transformation is to start replacing the old values, beliefs, and ways of interacting with yourself that have been compromising your goals with new ones that will naturally facilitate the transformation you seek. While this process is much more involved than I have time to communicate with you in this article, sometimes these things can be processed and solved on your own and other times you will need the help of a coach or therapist to understand yourself better and create the change you’re seeking. But for now, I’m going to give you the three foundations of inner transformation upon which all lasting change is built. With these three concepts intentionally applied to your life, you will be able to create tremendous change for yourself, even if you choose not to seek guidance from a professional.
The Three Foundations of Internal Transformation
#1 Self-Respect – Keeping Your Promises and Following Your Leadership
Oftentimes, the only thing getting in the way of achieving lasting change and transformation in our lives is a lack of self-respect. We make promises to ourselves that we don’t keep and decide to do things and then fail to move on them. In my own life, I realized that while I would keep promises that I made to others, I kept failing to keep promises that I made to myself. When I started to think about this and be honest with myself, I found it ridiculous that I valued upholding the honor of my word to someone else but would regularly choose to dishonor my word to myself. My lack of self-respect was causing me to only follow through on commitments that I made to others instead of the promises that I made to myself.
Besides failing to respect my promises to myself, I also regularly failed to follow my own leadership. When someone else in authority told me to do something, I would immediately do it, respecting their leadership. However, when I told myself to do something, I resisted my own authority and procrastinated like a lazy, disrespectful employee. In the workforce, this behavior might get you fired, but when you disrespect yourself this way, you just suffer the consequences of ignoring your inner wisdom and rightfully start losing respect for yourself. When I finally started demanding the same respect for myself that I had always given to any other authority, THAT is when my life really started to change. When I made promises to myself, I started keeping them. When I told myself to do something, I started complying immediately without resistance or procrastination.
#2 Self-Love – Doing What is Best for Yourself and Giving Yourself the Life You’ve Always Wanted
Self-love doesn’t mean lazing around, doing nothing, putting in minimal effort into your life, or otherwise going easy on yourself. Instead, self-love means doing what is best for yourself and giving yourself the life you’ve always wanted, even when it’s HARD. In other words, when you choose to love yourself, you stop neglecting yourself and settling for less. In my life before transformation, instead of doing what was best for me, I often did whatever was easiest. I also regularly avoided my fears and did the bare minimum to get by. Lastly, I consistently chose weakness and avoidance for myself instead of strength and courage. Instead of determining what would be good for me and doing it even if it was hard or uncomfortable, I kept choosing to neglect and abandon myself because I didn’t love myself enough to do anything differently.
I also had given up on my dreams because all of them seemed either too difficult or too scary. For a long time, I chose to give into my anxiety because I didn’t love myself enough to raise the courage necessary to conquer it. I always knew I wanted more, but I never loved myself enough to be honest with myself and figure out what was wrong with me. Instead, I kept supporting the successes of others because it was easier to be a part of someone else’s journey than it was to walk my own. I had given up on myself. However, all of this changed one day when I chose to love myself the way no one else ever had. I started holding myself accountable to treat myself with love in everything I did, from how I talked to myself, to how I took care of myself, to how I let other people treat me. Choosing to love myself started out as a commitment that I didn’t always feel like doing, but over time, it became a natural way of being. Now, I do my best to love myself in everything I think and do. As a result, this commitment to self-love has transformed almost everything in my life. I am now living MY life for ME and am finally giving myself the life I’ve always wanted. Therefore, letting go of the expectations of others and taking back my life for myself like this was only possible through self-love.
#3 Self-Worth – Tolerating Less and Working to Transform
Once I started treating myself with respect and love, my self-worth started to rise and I began noticing how much disrespect and lack of love I had been tolerating from both myself and others my whole life. I also saw how I had been allowing people to neglect me and use me for their benefit in one-sided relationships without reciprocating anything of value in return. Many of them had been drawn to me because I previously lacked boundaries and would allow them to manipulate me to meet only their needs. As a result, I had spent my entire life feeling drained and neglected by them because I had never prioritized my own wellness instead. However, as I continued to practice self-love and self-respect, I eventually decided that I had been tolerating far too much from them and that I deserved better. Because I finally believed that I was worthy of being treated better, I started setting boundaries, holding people accountable, and ending relationships that weren’t good for me.
In addition to tolerating less and expecting more from the people in my life, I also realized that I was worth putting in the effort to transform both myself and my life. Most people know that transformation and a better life is possible, but because of a lack of self-love, self-respect, and self-worth, they rarely put in the effort to change their life and that is why they keep getting the same results. However, as a person’s self-worth rises and they realize that they are worth the effort of changing and living a better life, transformation finally becomes possible. No one else in my life had placed that level of worth in me previously, so it was up to me to value myself enough to break free from my fear and choose a life of strength and courage instead. After all, it’s called self-worth and not others-worth for a reason.
A person will only put in the work to transform themselves if they think they are worthy of it. It doesn’t matter whether others think you are worth the effort or not, because ultimately, the only person’s opinion that matters is yours. Do YOU believe you are worthy of the effort to change?
Real Transformation Versus False Transformation
Everything I’ve said so far has set the foundation for understanding the difference between real transformation and false transformation. Real transformation occurs on the inside and naturally expresses to the outside, whereas false transformation is forced on the outside, but never fully aligns with the inside. It all comes down to the difference between forcing behaviors (false transformation) and becoming behaviors (real transformation). As previously mentioned, forcing is unsustainable and inauthentic whereas being is sustainable and real. Therefore, if you want to achieve lasting change in your life, you need to focus on becoming who you want to be on the INSIDE instead of trying to force inauthentic behavior on the OUTSIDE.
Are You Working on the Real Problem?
If you’re tired of trying to change and keep finding yourself always falling back into old habits, the truth is, it’s probably because you haven’t changed on the inside. You’re probably still trying to override the natural behaviors of your unchanged inner self.
If you really want to change, you’re going to have to change who you are on the inside. How will you know it's working and that you’ve started to change internally? You’ll know when your previous problems and behaviors start to go away and stay away. Instead of having an undesirable inner self producing undesirable outward behaviors, you will now be a transformed person producing transformed behaviors.
Put your work into yourself, not your problems. Choose to respect yourself, choose to love yourself, and watch your self-worth grow. Your behaviors have never been the problem; your relationship with yourself has always been. And in the same way that you’ve been the source of your problems, you can also become the solution to your problems. Don’t let denial or pride or blame or excuses keep you away from the transformation you desire; take responsibility for who you are right now and put the work into yourself to become who you want to be tomorrow. You are worth the effort, even if you can’t feel it or see it right now.
Engage with yourself in a newer, healthier way and watch your transformation unfold, because
Real, lasting transformation starts with how you treat yourself on the inside.
How to Find Your Purpose as an Atheist
I’ve been an atheist for over a decade since my deconversion from Christianity in 2015. During my reconstruction into my own personal atheistic life philosophy, I encountered the existential crisis common to those going through transitions like these. After years of being told that my purpose was to glorify God, convert others to my religion, and be obsessed with behavioral perfection, I found myself wondering what my purpose would be moving forward as an atheist.
Looking for a Universal Purpose After Christianity
The problem I encountered was caused by the unreasonable expectations indoctrinated into me by my previous religion. Christianity had told me that there is a universal purpose to my life and when I left it, my subconscious sought a direct replacement. Only this time, I was looking for a universal purpose for my life from a secular viewpoint. I eventually came up with the idea that the closest purpose I could assign to human and other sentient life is that we are here to survive and thrive. However, I soon realized that this was only our living instinct, but not necessarily what we’re here to do. And again, I was still looking for that universal purpose I lost when I left Christianity.
Religion Sold Me a Problem I Didn’t Have
I eventually realized through my research and contemplation that the idea of a universal purpose for our lives was fabricated by religion. Religious people created the problem of needing a universal purpose for our lives and told us that they had the solution.This is so typical of religion, telling you that you need something (like God) to survive and thrive when you don’t and are perfectly fine as you are. Once I understood that a universal purpose wasn’t needed to live a good life, I started to wonder if I needed purpose at all. The answer I found was yes, but not quite what I expected.
What People Really Need
We as human beings don’t need to know why we’re here or how we got here to live fulfilling lives with a sense of purpose. Indeed, that’s great news because no one really knows how we got here anyway. What we do need instead are things to motivate us to keep moving forward. However, these motivators aren’t like a universal purpose that applies to everyone. While many of us share similar sources of purpose, ultimately, what motivates us individually provides our unique purpose. This could be anything from our relationships to our jobs to our hopes to our personal growth to our desire to understand the world around us. Furthermore, because motivation comes from investment, we also create purpose for ourselves wherever we invest our time and energy. Therefore, investment creates purpose.
My Struggle with Lack of Purpose
As someone who spent over a decade in unemployment due to mental illness, I’ve spent a significant portion of my life feeling a lack of purpose. For a long time, my only purpose was to survive the pain of mental illness because I knew that as long as I survived, there was hope of healing in my future. I also didn’t want to kill myself because I loved my wife and didn’t want to leave her with that suffering. So, I kept living because of these significant, but not entirely fulfilling sources of purpose. Because of my inability to make any significant contributions to my home, my family, and the world other than my own survival, I felt the pain of lacking purpose in my life. I felt like my life didn’t really matter that much most of the time and I often felt like I was just wasting it trying to survive another day. This feeling continued even though days, months, and years went by without any significant healing or progress.
Years later, as I finally began to find genuine healing from my mental health problems and become more active in my life again, I discovered that purpose comes from investing in yourself and in others. Before my healing process though, investing in anything was extremely difficult because of my mental health problems, resulting in those many years of living without feeling much purpose.
Keep It Simple
Honestly, those struggling with purpose have a tendency to make this pursuit more difficult than it is. Contrary to our struggle, it’s actually quite simple: Better yourself and the lives of others, because that’s where purpose comes from–investment. It’s not some universal concept like worshiping a god but instead a feeling you get when you take good care of yourself and eventually have the capacity to share your time and energy with others as well.
Focus on Yourself and Help Others as a Result
The whole “better yourself and the lives of others” may seem like a universal source of purpose, but it’s actually more of a concept by which you’ll be able to find what’s specifically meaningful to you. Furthermore, I’ve also noticed that when I focus on self-care and improving myself, others invariably benefit as well. We are social creatures and in order to better ourselves, we have to create value that benefits others as well. Therefore, by bettering ourselves, we automatically end up bettering others.
Anything morally beneficial to oneself will also directly or indirectly benefit society, thus constituting a potential source of purpose. It doesn’t matter whether you get your purpose from your job, your family, your friends, or other pursuits in your life. What matters is that you’re living your life in alignment with your values, because if you do that, you and others will always benefit.
Live by YOUR Values
Don’t let other people try to push their values on you, because if you do, they will benefit but you likely won’t. You won’t be living from your heart, doing what matters to you, and being who you really are! Instead of absorbing the values of those around you, begin to ask yourself what matters to you. What brings you joy, motivation, and excitement? What makes you angry? Where do you invest most of your time and energy? These are the types of questions to ask yourself if you feel like you don’t have any purpose because these questions will reveal what matters to you. If these questions don’t reveal anything, you probably just need to start trying new things and investing yourself more deeply in things. Investment and commitment is where you will find purpose.
When the Pursuit of Purpose Needs to Take a Back Seat
I would like to note that if you’re going through depression right now, and feel like nothing matters to you, that’s common–although not a great place to be. It’s called anhedonia, where the things that used to matter to you and motivate you are no longer meaningful or appealing to you. This is a common side effect of experiencing depression–no longer being able to feel motivation or a sense of purpose. Just know that there is hope for you of healing and once again being able to feel motivation and purpose. I know because I’ve lived with severe depression, anxiety, anhedonia, fatigue and more for a long time and I’ve finally begun to heal and feel purpose again. If you’re stuck right now, dealing with any disability or mental illness, know that it's okay to only find purpose in taking care of yourself when you’re unwell. Afterall, if you’re not well, it’s going to be difficult to create value in your life, so you must focus on taking good care of yourself. Don’t pressure yourself to function highly like those who are well. Just focus on getting professional help and introducing better self-care into your routine. Healing will come with time if you choose to treat yourself with love and care. Greater sources of purpose can come later.
Evaluate Yourself
For those of you who are in a state of wellness though, you already have sources of purpose in your life; you just have to notice and acknowledge them. If what you’re doing with your life doesn’t seem to matter to you, first assess yourself for depression and mental health challenges. This is critically important because nothing you change in your life will make you feel a sense of purpose again if you are unwell, unless of course the changes specifically improve your general wellbeing. Secondly, if signs of mental or emotional unwellness aren’t apparent, ask yourself if you’re doing what you really want to do with your time. Some good questions to ask yourself could be:
Are you living the life YOU want to live or the life that others have conditioned you to live?
Are you being who you really are, or are you hiding your true self out of fear of rejection like I did for most of my life?
Are you living by your own chosen values or the values your family, friends, and society have pressured upon you?
If you answer these questions honestly, you may gain some valuable insight into your feeling of purposelessness. While the value you’re currently providing to yourself and others is definitely a potential source of purpose, if it is not creating the feeling of purpose within you that you’re craving, you’re probably not living in alignment with your true self and personal values.
We Want to Feel Purpose, Not Just Know It
This leads me to the ultimate secret about purpose that I’ve recently discovered: What people crave isn’t universal or objective purpose, but instead the feeling of purpose. It doesn’t matter if what you’re doing with your life seems purposeful to someone else if it doesn’t…feel…purposeful…to you. Therefore, aim to find what makes you feel like your life matters. The best way to do this is to be yourself and use what makes you special to improve the lives of others and yourself. There is no need for you to try to be someone else and do what they’re good at. Instead, you need to discover who you are and what makes you special and give yourself permission to live authentically, because authenticity is the true source of purpose.